Last night when I couldn’t sleep I wrote about my life with Norm. It will soon be 24 years we’ve been together this lifetime. I recalled so many moments and stories that I was swamped, but what I realized was how a life can be so full and yet it seems, can end without so much of a notice. Maybe it is the ego that wants to believe we matter, but what I’ve learned over the years is that I know we matter to the very fabric we are conceived in.
The love fabric, it’s an awesome fabric without end. It folds and unfolds in on itself, vibrates and oscillates in all directions forming and un-forming the various relations of relations—you and me and all the particulars of creation as needed. This quantum reality is un-manifest as we commonly think of manifested reality. It can’t be sensed through the worldview of materialism. It creates in ways we seem to know very little about, until now, unless we access it through our hearts, our intuitions and “felt senses.”
As we’ve learned from biophysists more and more about how organisms function being alive, we now are learning how they create and recreate themselves, form and un-form, as needed, the relationships required for their contextual existence. It is love and loving energy that seems to be the groundwork out of which we are each manifesting. Notice I did not say manifested. The manifested is the artifact of what our creative energy forms, but it is ephemeral. It is, then, is no more, transforming, changing constantly.
Getting attached, as the Buddhists would call it, is what seems to bring us suffering, wanting to hold on to one level of awareness, this or that manifested aspect of our existence from time to time. We hold on to what has formed through and in us. We also seem to get attached to both painful moments as well as those perceived as good. Powerful moments in creation grab our attention and can hold it if we don’t learn how to release that hold to the greater wholeness of our experience.
So as I recall my life, I realize what moments I am attached to, and hold in my awareness. I’m sure there are millions of experiences that do not hold my attention today in my life lived of 65 years. It would swamp the boat. But those highlights, those focused moments keep being in focus and those moments will be what I try to share now as I write about what Norm and I have learned in our life together.
Why do I wish to share them? I believe there might be something of interest, not because they are my experiences, but because I hope to share the universal – that which is human, in organisms, and in living, in all beings where we connect on one level in our shared experience. We sense and learn from one another as though we each have shared the same boat (because we have), but we each have unique perspectives on the experience and in that we matter. We are the novelty created by this awesome fabric. It is ours and ours alone to witness and expand what is possible pulling the fabric along with our living choices and experiences. We are the possibility and what we do with it is up to us. We are truly co-creators in this manifesting process; living, loving and being a vital thread in the awesome fabric. It’s a good vibration from which we are forming and un-forming. Enjoy it, sense it, breathe it, create it, and share it. The Beatles were right, Love is all there is.